i just dunno how to react when i saw you cry...

what i can do and what i should do is different. i know u need to be comfort. i know i can but i shouldn't. i ain't that kind of easy ppl. n i know, the person you need is not me.

haiz... relationship is very complicated. n i dun want to get involved.
别人都是劝和不劝分的。so do i. but when u urself know this is not going to work, then u should set yourself free. u know the situation best. no one else can help u also... the most i can do is accompany u go thru all these. other than this, i am useless.

i been thru these pain before too.. not easy to overcome, but u will be able to survive thru. just dun ever give up on life. life still going on with or without him. just that u already get used to him.. think of your family n ppl who still love u. never give up. we are all here for you.

other than jiayou, i dunno what else i can say.. 逃避解决不了问题。但面对却又太痛苦。唯有让时间来让自己麻痹，适应。当初我自己也花了好长的时间来说服自己看清。过程很痛。。一想到就痛。身边的事物也不断的让我想起一些我不愿想起的片段。。

很痛。锥心的痛。。连呼吸都痛。。。痛得久了，泪就不再流了。但那心，也不再悸动了。虽然这样，但我还是活下来了。虽然是活着的死人。但是至少我还活着。至于下个谁能让这已死的心再次活起来，我已不抱任何期待。只希望活着。只要还活着，就还有奇迹。

我当然知道你可以连命都不要。但是死又可以解决什么？留下来的人才是一辈子的痛。对一个没有血缘的人，一个不再爱你的，除了让他内疚一两个月，十年二十年，但过后一旦有了新欢就可以忘记了。你的家人，一辈子的痛。爱你的朋友，一辈子都遗憾。。

我还记得我妈问我，你爱你自己吗？你自己有很多优点，你应该爱你自己。孩子我爱你。
当时我哭了。因为当时我已经做了最坏的打算。我要放弃我自己了。我一直恨我自己。无法原谅伤害别人的自己。无法接纳我自己。到一个地步，我厌弃我自己。如果当时我妈没有发那短信来，我可能已经死了。

不管发生什么事，都不能够放弃自己。一旦自己都放弃了自己，无论别人怎么做，没有人可以替你站起来。

累了就休息，饿了就吃饭，想哭就哭，想笑就笑。为自己而努力活下去。无论做什么，只要问心无愧，对得起自己，就不需要遗憾。

一切都是人生必经的过程。。