phew... this is like.... heartbeats 240..

well... today... somebody asked me about who my crush it.. it's kind of awkward... coz the crush is the person who asked me. so i was like.... "hmmm... hmm.... just friends lo~" i am not ready to confess yet.. coz i dunno is she ok with relationship like this.. this is not an easy road... quite a lot of ppl just gave up to the reality... and she is the last friend i left now... i cant afford to lost her... really...

then she told me about her relationship. i was like stunned for quite long... i dunno how to react... i knew she is always texting someone. but i dunno that's her bf.. n about the watch... i really dunno what to say... just stunned...

i almost asked her to be my gf just to pull her out from that relationship. almost! really that's close. i dunno... really dunno....

is not like i really know her very much. but 日久生情 kind... i also confuse.. if she asked me to list down what i like about her, i couldn't.

i'm such a timid person... idiot ttm!!!

only 1 thing that i can 100% confirm is, i couldn't afford to lose her.